Before I left, I’d never heard the term, ‘triggering.’ I learned mighty quick after my first panic attack in the hardware store.
If understood correctly, it’s a term for any experience which ignites an emotional reaction based on past experience, but rooted in current events. A trip to the pet store for kibble today may send a survivor running for the car, blowing into a paper bag even when she’s thoroughly forgotten the incident where her spouse blew up over the dog food ten years prior.
This morning whilst attending my course, The Phoenix Program, a course designed to help female survivors of domestic abuse, I realised that it is OK to cry. At first, as the tears started to roll, whilst flash backs to hideous memories played like video tapes in my minds-eye, I felt rather embarrassed. As the tears streamed faster, I left the room to try to compose myself, something I only managed to do after being physically sick.
There’s nothing to fear but fear itself.-F.D. Roosevelt
Always do what you are afraid to do. -R.W. Emerson